Okay, so today has been rather eventful once again…
So, I now have no idea what to do.
I was talking to James(that’s his name, idk if you guys know it) at break today and I was like, ‘So, should I take your number or something so we can arrange a time or something?’ and then he tried to change the subject and then said something like, ‘Shouldn’t I be the one asking these questions?’. I didn’t know what that meant, so I just asked why and he said something like, ‘I think we’re going too fast…’ and then changed the subject again o.O…
Okay, so I’m not going to be critical of him being honest.
But I mean. I just don’t understand. When you’re going out with someone it’s not being too fast to arrange to go on a date with them, afaik. It’s the entire concept…
I think though from now on I’m going to take a step-down and let him make the next steps. Not to be bitchy but just so he can be comfortable.
It is a bit awkward though, admittedly, that I’m the female and apparently I’m going too fast :/. That’s not sexist- it’s just statistics. LOL.
But yeah, going slow…? I don’t like the idea of that at all. Though I’m not going to pressure him.
God, I sound like such a bitch in this post. LOL.
The good thing is he’s fun to talk too.
I do consider it a rather casual thing. We’re too different for this to last any more than a couple of years(which I know is decades in high school years but yeah)…
I also don’t think I’m going to tell him too much about me personally. I’m so totally not telling him I’m bi as well- he uses the phrase, ‘gay boy’ and stuff 
… and he’s an Altar Boy too(ikr o.o… Emor… dating an Altar Boy…).
I know I’m being really critical.
But it’s hard to read him.
I have NO idea where this is going now :/.
I know he’s not trying to be awkward and that when he gives mixed signals it’s probably because of him alternating from different confidences or something.
But it still sucks for me to figure out what he wants.
I personally don’t have THAT big of a problem taking things slow- it’s just… not seeing each other outside of school?
That’s extremely slow.
I’m wondering why.
Maybe he does just want to get to know me better.
But today he brought up how he dated this other girl before me and how it ended in a disaster.
That’s all he said. I might ask him tomorrow though what happened(he asked me what happened with me and my ex-boyfriend from school).
I also might apologise if I was going too fast.
Not because I’m actually sorry because imo I wasn’t even going fast but because he might actually explain.
There must be some reason.
Anyway, today in the social skills group it was awkward.
‘Cause this guy blurted it out to the person who runs it and then she starts going on about dating.
And we’re just like there going, ‘Yeah…’ and stuff ’cause we’re not even dating technically.
:/.
Also, the group was really boring after that. They kept lecturing and repeating the lecture to this guy about arriving late at school.
Meh.
Any advice about what I should do with James would be awesome 
.
Or should I just not do anything and act like nothing happened?
-Emma.
2 Comments, Comment or Ping
I would say, as he thinks your going to fast, let him take control. He may be a bit chivalrous, and will think men will be the leaders in a relationship.
Things will go slowly at first, but your end up happier than if you pull him along and things end badly.
And yeah, I would ask him. If he’s that hard to read, that may be the best way to find out.
Altar Boy? Uh!?
November 18th, 2009
Yeah, I decided that’s what I’m going to do
.
.
I’ll ask him if it pops up in conversation but it might come across as a bit invasive and I have no idea what I’ll say if it turns out it really did end horribly and he tried to kill himself or something(I seriously wouldn’t and my last ex-boyfriend said something like that and it made me really depressed that I couldn’t really break up with him even if I wanted too :/).
Yeah… I don’t have that big of a problem really with that to be honest though.
November 18th, 2009
Reply to “Title.”