Awesome Obsession

So… I’ve probably wasted around  a months hosting. Fun . LOL.

Anyhoo, it’d appear I am back ^_^.

Where did I go? No where- I just couldn’t be bothered informing you about the vanity my life had devolved into(okay, it was always, and will always be vain, but the REALISATION- loosing my delusion that there was some point! ROFL![DRAMA QUEEN ;D!]). Nah… to be honest, I just wasn’t content with where things were going in my life and the sudden, and some what unwelcome changes I was presented with in my life.

So I got rid of them. I broke up with James.

I felt somewhat guilty for James’ perceived sadness(which later turned out to be disguised anger) because it wasn’t really his fault(it was to a certain extent, but not enough to warrant a break-up) however he’s been a total jerk about it up to now so that guilt has now gone and replaced with a mild disliking.

I personally think I’ve been very civil about the whole thing. He’s stormed off several times(well, actually, every time I’ve had a conversation with him at school that has lasted more than 10 seconds), told me he loves me like 10 times(in my opinion when the other party establishes several times that they want it over and it’s not negotiable that is rather… out-burstish? LOL), told me he only said he loved me to get back with me, told me the only reason he ever dated me was because I was the only one who would date him, apologised several times, etc. I could go on…

Me? Well, all I’ve done is break-up with him with a decent justification, been exceptionally reassuring, and sometimes laughed with contempt when I’ve expressed disapproval with him saying such things, only for him to display a face of confusion(he honestly doesn’t see what is wrong in saying such things :/… I don’t mind if they’re the truth- my life is just a giant delusion, I don’t even mind when he agrees when I state such things, but blatantly stating them is just uncalled for, especially when I didn’t say anything to provoke such acts of hatred).

But yeah, that’s it. I’ve had it with relationships. It’s not that I’m too young for a relationship as such, it’s just the guys around me are too young for me. Yes, however narcissistic and egotistical that may sound, I seriously can’t stand guys my age. They’re all idiots. Don’t get me wrong, so are the girls, but at least I don’t have to make an effort with them. To be fair I do talk to guys more often but that’s just because the majority of my time I spend talking is in an argument and guys(sorry all my male readers[which is indeed my entire user-base, rofl]) have a greater tendency to make outrageous statements. Females do too but they have other intentions. Guys just do it to be all alpha-male(a.k.a being a jerk ). LOL.

Oh, Emor, you’re so sexist .

No I’m not- I genuinely do think all sexes suck.

But yeah, I think I’m going to wait until I’m in College or something so I can date someone with similar interests to me. Josh was the only one I could have a decent conversation with and that was about computers.

Don’t get me wrong, I do love computers, but I like a bit of variety. As you may have noticed I have a wide spectrum of interests- you simply don’t find that in guys my age. They’re just interested in computers and video games.

I also like video games- more the hardware and stuff as opposed to actually playing them(I get so bored playing games, they’re not stimulating enough… I start to think of other things while playing on them)- but you can’t conduct the entire social aspect of a relationship around one subject- which the two can be placed under(technology).

Even if I could, not to boast, but the guys my age have no were a similar extent of knowledge I do on the subject than they do :/… I mean, having an entire conversation about why Windows 7 sucks based purely on the UI is… degrading… LOL…

So, yeah. Basically, what I’m saying is, I’m superior to people my age and am far too intelligent to mingle with such peasants .

Nah- they have their pros, I have mine. There’s simply no over-lap though. That’s what I’m saying.

I’m crap at sport. Everyone else is fucking amazing. I’m good at computers. Everyone else is crap. Etc.

But yeah. That’s my justification for why I’m not going to date any guys in my year.

In all honesty I probably would if they asked because I’m so damn desperate(I act like I lead my life in a logical manner but the truth is I just justify my emotional requirements with a logical explanation ^_^). LOL.

I do actually seriously believe though that I’d say no.

But past experiences express the contrary.

So yeah.

Past experiences don’t show me dumping a guy though.

So maybe they’re not reputable.

Anyway.

New topic.

(My God, 900 words on a relationship? You’d think you were some High School female, Emor! LOL)

SO, me and mah possie(the possie consisting of one online friend, of course) have started a major project.

Code-named The Blimp Project, it gleams in epic-1337ness and shall be the first ever social networking site where an IQ of above -20 is required.

It shall be the first place where the exclusion of vowels shall not be the norm but what the unworthy of flammatory use an inferior form of communication.

It shall be were intellectuals meet to exchange cultural differences from all over the world with an open-mind.

There will be no prejudices.

And most of all, it’ll have the highest prevalence of acquired situational narcism sufferers on any social networking(with the exception of WrongPlanet- I’m not that fucking ambitious)! LOL.

But yes. The Blimp Project shall be truly unique. People will no longer have to venture the interwebs for the opposite party to reciprocate their esoteric messages as opposed to get nothing but a mere emoticon of confusion!

The true potential for this site is inevitable.

Which I suppose is a good thing because I’m not really allowed to go into much detail anyway .

For project development updates feel free to visit our development site(perpetually behind in development… for irony’s sake of course):

http://www.theblimpproject.co.nr

Anyway, fair-well my fellow readers! We shall meet again another post!

-Emma.

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