December 30th, 2009
RaS X.X
*Deep sigh* So I suppose keeping this blog thing up-to-date scheme sort of… well… didn’t work? LOL. No shit 
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Anyway, I’ve actually been quite busy and I’m actually quite happy with how my life’s going.
I’m single which I’m really glad about- it’s a major worry lifted, though my ex-boyfriend still isn’t out of my life and I don’t think he will be any time soon, despite how much I want him to be(though I keep reassuring the complete contrary because I’m selfish and what not).
I’m back on my favourite forum which I’m also really glad about, though it seems the forums I joined when I left that forum I’ve become completely inactive on >_<! I plan on becoming more active on them though ^_^.
But most of all I’ve started going on Skype for hours a day and I know this might sound stupid but I actually feel for the first time in years that people genuinely enjoy talking to me… I know for most people that it’s guaranteed some people will automatically enjoy talking to them, but I’ve just always felt people have not enjoyed talking to me, or I’ve always been questioning why they were talking to me, assuming there was some sort of ulterior motive other than wanting to talk to me for perceived genuine intents(find the person interesting, like their personality, etc.). Even people who made a genuine effort to be my friend I thought didn’t like me but just felt sorry for me. Even my own (now ex)boyfriend I was sure was delusional or a liar to like me as a person(long story short that’s basically true but yeah ). LOL.
So to feel like people like you for who you are and actually _want_ to talk to you because they enjoy your company means a lot to me. Admittedly, just online, but it still means a lot.
Anyway… I’m bored now… CBA with writing dem stupid blog posts .
-Emor.